farewell

05 Apr 2010 2 Comments

by yanzzz in 24'7 =365, help me, its gaining~, new discoverY, says my souL

Times are so much different now, the 2 man in my life, moves .. basically the 2 ex men moves .. one is who hurt me and still never fails to love me dote me coax me when I am sad when I need a shoulder when I need a smile and give me the shoulder when I need to lay on. The other one who never fails to give me a good hug a good wrap around me and make me feel safe when his around.

But all in all, they hurt me both. Still friends ? I really dun know.
I love LT I know, but all you want is to get me as a companionship and refuse to leave the girlfriend for me. He says he love her yet also want me. But still why do I feel like a dirt to you? I wann be rare stone, a gem stone, a stone which someone who can appericate me. Not someone who jus wann dust me away when your with her. It makes me disappointed and sad.

As for AN, you have always be there fore me but all you can say to me is I betray your trust, time and time I explain till I totally giveup communicate with you. If you never understand how I felt and wat I says , den u will never know how I felt. Always says we are good friends we are buddies and u will not want to lose me as a friend.. to me tat is the main reason why I told you abt LT . and the day when u told me, I betray you and u says I am a princess and tats why u refuse to invite me to the xmas party last year. And seriously.. you keep saying its my fault. Why didn’t u blame urself to? Our problem is jus because ur friends are important to you. So much den me. And your mean words saying that I jus scare of loneliness and I cant survive without man. Fine ! den I will show this to you that u are wrong. The most I can survive without will be you. You told me tonot to enter ur life FOREVER and this will be as what you wish for. I may be stubborn at this but it shall be your wish, u always wann keep me to as a close friend yet ? when I were in rs I wann still keep u as friend but this is ur reaction .. and it shall be foreever ..

Until now . as of 5april12010.. I hv yet to receive any of your sms not even a call. I am sad I know. But I wann to move on from today onwards. I couldn’t promise I wont drop any tears for this path
But I will still turn back and to recall n remember and be upset that ur my past, and
I did ever love you.

i hope i will never regret loving you.
never once i am never serious with you in my times with you.
I do